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well, its been over a week and haven't heard back from the Stone Cold Ice Creamery. Little on edge, yes, yes I am. Got word from Qdoba that yes, they are excited about the Montana market, but unfortunately someone else already has stake on it. I'm not that person. Chipotle it turns out isn't a franchise company, SO while they have not yet looked into coming to Montana they'll "be happy to forward your request to our Regional Real Estate Contact for consideration." And these guys were actually pretty energetic! That's always nice to see eh? The taco ideas were SOLID, great suggestions from M&M, but dang it they aren't exactly going to work out. Not right now at least. BRAVERY.

So now comes the pressure from the parental units. Basically I've (apparently) got a mad crush on my ex boyfriend whom I thought I was doing fine without until he shows up at my birthday bash and we TALK. Why do people talk? Anyway, neither of us know what we want blah blah blah and Mom and Dad say, no one is going to want to be with someone that doesn't have anything going for themselves. GET IT TOGETHER AMY. Thanks dudes. Get a job they say. Do what you need to do. Its not like I don't APPLY FOR JOBS. I don't know - they call it tough love because I haven't gotten very far on my own, and well, thats pretty freakin fair. I just eat myself alive because right now I could be sitting in Spokane nose in the books working on a Law Degree if I wouldn't have decided to opt out this summer. Or in Denver, working on a Masters in Marketing allowing me to go work at Nike conducting consumer research ie: hanging out at basketball camps with 11-17 year olds getting an idea of what they want. Or, I could be in New Zealand working as a glacier guide four days of the week. Further still, I could be in Billings working at MSU in some office job making pretty nil and dragging my butt up in the morning asking myself, WHY.

The worst part is I had like four funny things to say on here but I've gone and just made this a piss pot of complaining. Super fun for all of you's! Aye, such is life I guess. If I get out of this funk alive its going to be an epic comeback tour. Dudes, I have been ill as a pill these last couple of days and then about this time at night, it comes back... stomach starts a churning and dinner says it would feel a lot better about going in the toilet now, the way it came in, while it still can. Is it nerves? Probably. I took a test tonight on Trig - FAIL. Tried one on Physics... FAIL. Hard to believe at one point I knew that stuff. I could teach it. Now? I couldn't save my life to tell you the velocity of what not next to the ish of a mass of business. Becoming a tutor is harder than it used to be.

Good lord I can't wait to get my hair cut. Did I tell you guys that I considered going bald? I know right. The guy that cuts my hair was suggesting it - at first I scoffed, jaw dropped and laughed out loud, but as the session went on, and the more I thought about it, it would or may be kind of fun. For like a week. Then come the tears. I feel like if I were in a different country I probably would do it in a heartbeat. Maybe not. Something sexy about a chick who rocks a shaved head. But she has to be one beautiful lady. A beautiful that I do not posses. Hey, we just talked about it! I can't blame Britney.

Brother is back from Iraq! Going to give him a proper Homecoming on Sunday in Helena. Should be a good time :) Wish I were a little more fired up about it, but for some reason I'm being a poop. Ever feel like you want to run away? I used to. Like three days ago. That feeling is sort of gone right now. I like it. God bless my good friend Liz and Trav for letting me stay with them. It feels good to be here. I feel pretty relaxed. You know, its not necessarily the STATE of Montana that's so addicting, its the people. You can't replace the people. Its family here. When I was last in Helena, standing in line at the Post Office, I ended up having a five minute whatever exchange of words with the lady behind me, but you know what, you can't do that everywhere. It was enjoyable! Friendly exchange of conversation! Hot damn I love me some of that. That's my style. I enjoy people and I believe before knowing anything, that people are good people. I leave my keys in my car dammit and don't think twice.

I really gotta write more often, that much is seriously clear no? Hah, and actually write about the stuff I find humorous/enjoyable throughout the day. Cross your fingers mates that I get a job at Great Divide as a ski instructor. I'm banking on it. Horrible thing to do. Time for some C.S. Lewis - Mere Christianity! I should throw some of his stuff up on here, its pretty rad. Lay-tro!