amy rocks, okay?

Honey, you and me, we've got plans. Big plans :)

When I graduated from Gonzaga my mom snuck up into my room amongst all the busyness and put a series of quotes on my wall :) in true teacher form, on those penmanship strips of paper that teach you where the top of a “c” goes and how long to make your “y’s, g’s, and j’s” :)  This worlds gone crazy and it’s hard to believe that tomorrow will be better than today… believe it anyway. You can chase a dream that seems o out of reach and you know it might not ever come your way… dream it anyway. You can love someone with all your heart for all the right reason and in a moment they can choose to walk away… love them anyway. You can spend your whole life building something from nothing, one storm can come and blow it all away… build it anyway.  -Martina McBride

How many people read this? Who are you? I get emails, messages, texts and references often and am always shocked that there is someone else out there that knows the url of my tumblr besides me, my mom, and of course Vanessa. :) I think part of not knowing keeps me from disclosing things and being able to write about what I really do want to write about and share. It’s scary you know? Putting it out there and expressing your thoughts because, well, who’s reading it? I know that part of blogging means that you aren’t supposed to care and that’s the “beauty of it”, but I find myself feeling the complete opposite of that approach. Cue fear of rejection of complete strangers? WHICH IS INCREDIBLY FRUSTRATING IN WAYS I CANNOT DESCRIBE EXCEPT THAT SOMETIMES IT GETS SO BAD MY TUMMY MUSCLES HURT because truly folks, I don’t expect you to care, that’s not why I write. I don’t know why I write, why I think, or why I feel the need to write it all  freaking down .  I  JUST DO! I as...

Sometimes it just hits and I really CAN'T help it. For those of you not goo goo gah over someone, be warned. But this is my life tonight before I picked up my book and I wasn't about to let it go :) I never realize how much I'm going to miss you until its too late and you've gone. But laying here thinking of you, instantly opens the gates of memories and thoughts which remind me of how much I am so wonderfully lucky to have you in my life. If this is love, than I think I'd like to officially join the club :)